Firstly i tot the week would be short, cos fri was a public holiday, so i tot we can bk out on thurs night (most prob) and bk in on sunday night and can enjoy a long wkend.. But, i was wrong.. SAF is so fucked up.. Sat is still a half day, so wad they did was let us off on thurs night, and bk in on fri night.. den on sat afternoon, bk out again.. and bk in back on sun night.. WTH.. Even half day also wan to count!! Its like machiam no public holiday like dat.. and btw, most of my free days were spent recuperating at home.. why? Cos of the stupid sicknesses... flu, fever, cough, sore throat and all again.. i rly hate to be sick.. Then on fri, i cud not take it anymore, so went to hospital cos of my high fever.. but damn, the doc said i looked fine and dun wanna giv me MC.. so i lan lan have to go back camp tt night.. sucks.. when i slp my forehead was burning hot!! Hate it manz.. finally ate the panadol tablets before i slp.. at least feel better..
Yeah, and now.. i feel much better, fever gone le.. BUT, the irritating runny nose and cough is still there!! Arghhh... hate it much much much!!
Oks, enuf abt sicknesses... lets talk abt the course program..
As i was saying i was so scared of failing my HSP for the 4th time again... and guess wad?? I PASSED in the 4th attempt!! Yay.. lol.. actually, i was rly nervous and scared.. and this time, i told myself, i wanna be the LAST to go in.. as most of the time i was among the first few to go, and kena "kicked out" so fast.. so this time i wanna be the "last one standing".. and yeah, i was one of the last few to go in.. and, faced with a serious looking tester... and, i was the first to be tested among 2 of us who went in..
When i saw that he straightaway ticked me for 2 boards, i told myself.. this is my chance to score.. i must not lose it!! So well, first board he took out was... the uncontrolled cross junction.. haha, that one was easy.. i done pretty well.. BUT BUT BUT.. forgot to confirm one thing.. so damn, but lucky he gave chance.. he only said if i din confirm 1 more time, he will penalise me.. :( so wells..
Next board was roundabout... haha.. easy one too... i did everything nicely and so he passed me for the board.. Last board was accident!! AHHH.. that is my main weakness... and sure enuf, he failed me cos i forgot to beware the most impt thing... ahh!! Ok nvm, 1 down..still got 2 more to go... but then.. he nv took out anymore boards, he then gave me a bonus question.. and i answered correctly.. then.. TADA!! I saw my paper got a BIG P with a circle.. means PASSED!! I PASSED!! OMG OMG.. i still can't believe it man.. i was really damn happy... walked out of the room so happily... hahahaha... just can't contain the happiness inside me.. even my theory instructor also congratulated me!! WOW... lol.. so yes, i finally passed HSP!! Which isn't very easy.. as still got a number of ppl who failed even up till now.. thank goodness i passed!!
Nex up is ... my practical... driving!! Ahhhh... thats my weak spot.. and this wk just started 200 mins driving.. which is rly very tiring!! All the way till last day which is wednesday.. i kinda committed a few mistakes and made my DI so mad, that he said he wanna gave up on me alrdy.. so he nt gonna teach me anymore.. he just let me be free... i dunno if its a gd thing or not.. but i think of coz not a gd thing cos test is just ard the corner.. so maybe i'll still have to put up with his harsh scoldings and all for 1 more wk and after i passed the test, i can no nd see him anymore.. ahh.. AJA AJA FIGHITNG!! Keep it coming!! I will hang on...
Lastly, is also my weakest link... PARKING!! Parking with a 3 TONNER is rly NOT AN EASY FEAT!!! And and, i missed out so many parking lessons due to my 200 mins driving... damn... i din do any parallel parking at all... if test come out, i sure die!! So wells.. gotta train hard and practise hard too.. but there's not enuf time... haiz.. next tues is parking test already.. i guess i'll have to stay back on mon to practise hard.. i will do it!! I will pass!!
Last but not least, 2 tests coming up next wk.. they are.. the TP (Traffic Police) which is the REAL DRIVING ASSESSMENT TEST and the PARKING TEST... these 2 tests are of equal importance.. as once i passed both of them, i'll get my military license!! So pls!! Let me pass thru this LAST 2 HURDLES!!! I wanna get that LICENSE!!! Then can show off when i go back to Gedong camp!! yeah.. haha!! OKOK.. LICENSE!!!!!!
Next up, the emotional part... recently, my fren (e one who came with me from the same unit).. let me read an sms.. it was an sms sent by his unit MSG.. so gd lor his MSG still care for him.. mine leh?? They dun even bother to send me an sms.. guess they also forget abt mi liaoz.. wadever la.. i also heck care.. i wanna change section when i go back!! Dunno can anot.. sick n tired of BX liao.. :(
The friends part... ok la, just talk a bit more and open up more but still not that close to many of them yet.. and well, gotta tolerate some of their "making fun of me" times.. i rly hate it when they make fun of me.. like sometimes i did some mistake, they will use it to play ard... haiz, rly hate it.. ok lor, just laugh it off... once they get over it, its ok...
And, i find wad my group IC (Ilmi) said is true.. i rly need a buddy, someone whom i can relate and talk to during in camp... then i can quit my slowness, blurness, and all my bad habits.. but but but, where and who wanna be my buddy?? Its not easy to find a buddy unless u can click very well with him.. In my bunk, its just me and that unit fren of mine.. whom i claim as "buddy" cos sometimes he gd to me, but sometimes not so gd.. ahhh, just gotta live with it.. i feel sometimes i also have no pride at all.. where's the manhood in me and everything?? No confidence at all... i noe i nd a buddy... but its not easy... and still, i hate my slow response too..
Ok lah.. shall end here for now.. 2 more wks in KBC before gg to MAN Truck (5 TON) and OUV... i will pass out from this course successfully and gracefully!!!
Bye for now..
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