If i was from the ptp batch back then, today would be a day that i will be celebrating.. why? Cos it will be "my" ORD day! But apparently, its not so.. back to emo. -.-''
Anyways, im now on "unofficial leave" aka mc lols.. again. Why? Cos i just had my wisdom tooth removed again. This time, and also its the last time for my other side. The last time i did was abt 2 mths ago, so yeah finally time to do this last side and its all finished!!
Just wanna say, this time round the operation still the same as before, however i feel it hurts more than the last time.. esp the pulling and drilling part of my tooth.. that part makes me feel like dying!! It was super PAINFUL!! Maybe the anaesthethic not enough dosage.. So i had no choice but to endure it for like.. 10-20 minutes?? And then when i heard "its done".. i was like WHEW!! But wad followed after was a temporary numbness of my cheek around the area which was being operated on.. so i couldn't feel a thing.. but aft a while, the numbness subsided and the pain starts to come in.. thats when i needed the painkillers.. the pain is finally gone aft a while of taking in the painkillers.. And now, my cheek is a little swollen... so its fugly! lols..
Kk... i've not been in camp for like almost one week, except for a particular day, that was tuesday. Apparently, i could have just not gone back at all.. but due to this thinking that this junior of mine would not be able to cope without my help.. i decided to come back even though i was on off. It was really a rash decision i made though. Could have enjoyed my monday to the fullest but yeah.. stupid to go back camp and to witness all the shit that happened.
From my words, u could tell that i already had loads of shit coming. Seriously, i shudn't have gone back at all!! A bit like "zhi zhao de ma fan".. Okk, firstly when i came back, my junior saw me and asked me why i came back.. I said i wanted to come back and help him.. I tot he will be touched when i said it but to my dismay, he didn't! He said i wanted to come back to save that off day of mine.. which is true i partly wanted to do that, but my main intention of coming back was also to see how he is coping and whether he need help or not.. cos i tot i will be gone for like a wk or so and wont be able to help him much, so i tot of cancelling my off to go back and help him.. but sadly, it wasn't appreciated at all..
Wad comes aft that was even worse...just like a nightmare.. The moment i stepped into my bunk, this particular big-sized guy just started his "crazy tongue lashing" on me. It really got me annoyed cos he used all those sarcastic and crude remarks on me which really made me mad!! As he was the one that did duty with me on sat.. it wasn't really a gd one doing with him. As he was my orderly.. so he just did wad he supposed to do, that is to collect lunch n dinner thats all.. the rest he dun bother. Thats how lazy he is. There was one time i saw so many ants crawling on the floor and asked him to help me clean, he dun wan.. i was super pissed with him lor!! Somemore my hand accidentally hit the railing so hard, that it became blue black and sore.. at that time i was so scared my bones might crack lor!! Yeah, i hate myself for being so bony and skinny.. =(
Anyway, i really loathe doing duty with him.. seriously sucks ttm. And now, come back bunk, he's my bunkmate.. still gotta endure his shit talk. Think he very smart, just bcos my intelligence quite low, can suan me until like that lah!! FCUK HIM!! I rly hate it too.. but sometimes i just can't think fast enough to outsmart him.. being in camp rly makes me stupid.. Anyway, just becos u big-sized doesn't mean i scared of u lor! U big sized doesnt mean u are strong.. it shows that u are FAT!! SERIOUSLY FAT!!! GEDDIT??
I keep tolerating him until i really REN WU KE REN le.. at the tech store where i went down to collect the spares.. he came also and he started his suan-ing again.. i seriously du lan liao and just retorted back to him.. Then he kinda "scared" liao so he try to act apologetic towards me. And so i relented and gave in. But who noes, come back bunk, he said he did that was to give face to me only cos got many ppl in the tech store so he dun wan to make the scene look ugly.. he wasn't really sincere abt apologising to me at all lor! FFFUCK HIM LAH!!! KNNCCB!!! Nv had i been so angry before lor..
Actually, he said i was the main cause of the whole thing.. cos i moved into their bunk from my own bunk.. Ok, initially i was from my own bunk with the bx people. But, due to the new ojes coming in and needed a place to slp and also during that pt of time, i dun rly like being in that bunk that i chose to switch to another bunk.. so this fatty tot of me like a "refugee" trying to seek refuge in their bunk. Had i known all this would happen, I WOULDN'T HAVE SWITCHED BUNK LOR!!! I'd rather stay in my own bunk.. all becos i wanted to let the new ojes come in so i sacrificed myself to go to another bunk.. now it looks like my decision was wrong in the first place!!
But sheesh.. wads done is done.. it can't be changed.. just gotta continue to endure for a mth more and kiss my ass gdbye to that holy goddammn place..
I guess i have uttered too much already... but cause im really angry when i think abt it.. so i wanna write it down.. but def not for memory sake!
K lah.. just can't wait to f off from the place lor!!! WHY?? Why today not my ord??? DAMNNN!!
Alright.... bb.
