Vent

Friday, February 12, 2010 at 12:00 AM
Yoyoyoyoyoyoyo, i havent blogged for quite some time already.

Anyways, just to kinda vent out my frustrations.. i will spill some beans here.

Well well, its been 2 mths since i set foot into my new camp in SGC and which will be my "home" for the next 1 and 1/2 yrs.

Generally, i got to know my platoon mates more in-depth and also other mates from other platoons.

However, my own section is... not say bad la, but a bit not-so-gd.. why?

Cos of a fk-ed up sgt of mine.. i noe he doesnt like me, neither do i.. he's really my "yan zhong ding".. i rly can't stand him and he can't stand me too.

First things first, i hate his kind of tone towards me, always so harsh and so unfeeling.. even the way he acts is also quite punkish.. typical ITE guy la..

Next, he always like to aim at me even for the slightest thing.. yes i noe at first im not that gd, i dunno anything, i keep asking him to show me do this do that and when i can't rmb them just becos i dun hav a gd memory, he come n f me upside down.. WTF! Ppl make mistakes lor.. if nobody makes mistakes, then everyone is perfect liao isn't it?? I rly hate it manzz..

Third, i feel he's very controlling.. like where i go and what i do also must let him noe.. yes i noe its impt to tell ur seniors abt ur whereabouts.. but the feeling he giving me is too much too much to the extent like u want to tie someone to a rope like dat. If thats the case, might as well find a rope and tie me to a pole so i wun run away.. isn't it?? I rly hate it whenever go toilet or just wanna go somewhere else i tell him already, he will say go, but with a "faster" behind and also harsh tone and mannerisms.. can't he just act a bit more manneristic??

Worse comes to worst, he just likes to scold and tekan me.. guess im just too easy to be bullied huh.. fking hell.. and sometimes i piss off, i just heck care him but i din shout back at him, which i wanted to but dared not. Even tho i din shout at him, he tot i giving him some attitude.. yes i show attitude cos i not happy.. if u not happy would u show attitude?? So does that mean he is the only one who can show attitude when he not happy and not me??? We are all human beings we will get angry too..

Think abt this, if u are gg to work with someone for almost 1 yr plus, and u already dun like that person or want to make hell with that person.. how then are u gg to COOPERATE with that person to get the job done faster and better together?? Imagine if u keep shouting at one another, scolding f*** u to one another, is it gg to get any better?? Just so u noe u gonna be stuck with that guy for like almost 1 and 1/2 yr plus?? If i were HIM, i rather make life easier for my juniors.. rather than tekan-ing them, but teaching them the proper methods seriously but sincerely.. so that they can appreciate wad i am teaching them.. instead me scolding them and making them hate me forever.. its not going to work well if we r working in a team..

Army is the same..everything is abt teamwork.. if that fk-ed up sgt of mine wants to make my life hell, it is not gg to work out nicely cos there wun be any cooperation at all.. why can't he think of making life better for me and him and for the rest of our section mates..?? Why must he really pin me to the core and make me his "yan zhong ding" and i the same to him too?? There is a path for him to choose, why must he choose the hard path?? Tekan me also no use.. it will just make me hate him more and bring the whole team morale down.. i dun understand seriously.

Alrightsss.. enuf of that fk-ed up sgt of mine.. he's not the only one, there is still a staff sgt who kinda acts as a big fk.. and also some of my seniors.. i noe they are more pro and skilled than me and finds me work slow dun give a fk or wadever.. yes im bad.. but they as seniors shud be more encouraging and more understanding.. well wadever..

Anyways, yes im at fault too.. but they themselves also have their faults.. no one is perfect.. so actually i can't rly blame anyone here.. but just hope things will get on for the better.. as i seriously can't stand HIM anymore..

God, pls come and help me and curb my feelings.. i wish for better days ahead! Esp in camp!!

Alrights, this is just to vent out my frustrations and all....

Nitez everyone!

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1st post for 2010

Saturday, January 2, 2010 at 2:30 AM

Hello earthlings! Welcome to the world of 2010!!

Yeah.. this is my FIRST post for 2010.. first of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Just an update on New Year’s Eve…

Morning attended Coy Cohesion at Jurong Safra, Joy Garden Restaurant. Had an 8 course meal with dessert.. yummy! Then watched movie 2 Fast 2 Furious while eating. Thing ended at ard 1pm.. after that went home.

At abt 8pm, went out to meet Dom and gang at Orchard. Together got 7 of us – Me, dom, wei xiang, joseph, sia, joel and yong biao. COOL~ Seldom can go out as one big group.. some more its NEW YEAR’S EVE.. and we TONNED the whole night thru.. FUN but TIRING!! Ok.. from orchard, we proceeded to Dhoby wanting to play pool or LAN, but too bad all full so went eat tau huay at Rochor Beancurd there. Nice!! as always…

Then slowly walk to Clark Quay to find a pub. In the end, we went to Beer Belly pub at Boat Quay.. Nice pub with gd ambience.. and got KTV too. Me and joel sang some songs when it was our turn.. Superwoman the pitch was damn HIGH.. then xing fu bu mie also.. overall had gd time there. Left pub at 230am and walked to Lau Pa Sat for supper.. after that everyone tired le.. walked to Raffles MRT and sat at the grass patch. Some tired went to slp while some chatted the whole night. As for me, ZZZ monster came and attacked me so… yeah.

Woke up at 6am, ready to take the first train home.. my oh my, it was a CROWD!! Can only take the 2nd train after like 11 mins?? Damn.. reached home at 7 and KO-ed immed… So thats how i spent new year’s eve!!

Indeed a great NEW YEAR EVE!! Hope can have more outings in this kind of groups in future.. :D

BYEBYE and HAPPY NEW YEAR again!!

Next up~ Resolutions… nitez!

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Platoon Cohesion Day

Thursday, December 24, 2009 at 1:33 PM

 

Okays, well i have not been updating my blog for quite some time due to
1) BUSYNESS and also..
2) LOWDTNB (Lost Of Words Due To Long Time Nv Blog) Syndrome.

So, first of all, got my posting 1 wk ago. And my fate is sealed. Gedong will be my “home” for the remaining 1 yr 7 mths. Life in Gedong isn’t that gd.. everyday got work to do, do and do.. until so tired and so dirty.. really.. and finally its HSH (home swt home) time. BUT, sometimes might have to OT if cant finish work on time.. so.. gotta prepare.. especially nxt month, which is the HIGH KEY period, will get loads of OT and loads of BUSYNESS until i can’t even imagine..

Anyways, yesterday was my Platoon Cohesion Day held at the SAF Changi Seaview Resort.. a very nice chalet with a beautiful seaview.. its really good to stay there with ur family frens and loved ones.. So ytd was good but not really THAT good, cos of the company.. it was kinda boring actually during OTOT.. nth to do.. just talk cock and walk about by ur own self. No lah, with my OETI section mate.. the one who got posted tgt with me, Sushi. So ytd me and sushi were mostly by ourselves while the rest of them were in their groups doing things together such as PSP-ing, Talk cock-ing, Mahjong-ing and Dai Dee-ing.. actually i wanna play Dai Dee and Mahjong de.. but they play money.. and some more its very big.. so u can win big or lose even bigger! Therefore i nv play..

At ard evening time, BBQ and Steamboat for dinner.. ate many foods.. chicken wings, satay etc etc.. then after that all the BIG SHOTS came at atd 8pm.. OTOT again until 9 plus.. they called us 2 OJEs down to drink.. Master DJ is really pro in drinking.. keep drinking non-stop.. then ask me and sushi to drink as well.. So we drank under forced circumstances.. lol, one glass.. Guess wad was it? It was HARD LIQOUR (CHIVAS) + Coke! Fortunately the coke was more than the Chivas.. so still ok.. when i drank it at first it tasted BITTER.. VERY VERY BITTER … then got that BURNING SENSATION inside the stomach.. after that i feel a bit giddy and went upstairs to rest.. fortunately nth happened.. i didn’t have a hangover or sth. :) At ard 10pm, we had a celebration for the DEC BABIES and ORD Personnels.. log cake! I want to eat.. but nv get to eat.. lol.. Then aft that GIFT EXCHANGE.. i got a very gd gift! yay.. and finally 1030, some of us make our way home… take 29 to Tamp Int and then take mrt all the way home..

I guess thats all.. no pics as i have no camera.. sadly.. so BYEBYE!

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Goodbye OETI!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009 at 9:08 PM
Today is officially the End Of Course day for me in OETI. So fast... time really flies. Still rmbing when i first came to OETI, i rly abhored the place.. its old, dirty, looks haunted... how can it be a "heaven" for ppl? But now, i truly feel that it is really "heaven" and i rly cant bear to leave the place, and the staff sgts and instructors.. they are all nice ppl.

Tmr will receive the posting result, its either gedong or kranji. Most likely its a stay-in. Really dunno where i am gg to go. Just hope it is a good one and got a few good or close ppl same unit as me that will be gd enuf. Cos its gg to be for 1 yr 7 mths! Its definitely a decision for life as to where i will be and what kind of live i will be living for the rest of the 1 yr 7 mths of my life in ns.

Passing out also means that i am now a qualified technician, but i know i am not.. Even if ask me to go repair vehicle now, i will still struggle with a question mark on my head. But the fact is im already a qualified technician... ah well.

Next is my relationship with the rest of the trainees. Overall, i would say i have a moderate kind of relationship with them. Still not very close yet. I guess its just hard for me to click with them not knowing what to say at times. I tried very very very hard to be like "one of them" but i still dun seem to be "one of them".

'Nuff said...

Life is hard.. gotta move on to the next chapter of life.

If i had a choice, i'd rather not be born into this world so i wun have to experience all these bitterness that im experiencing now.

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blogging cos im bored

Monday, December 7, 2009 at 5:43 PM
Im back to blog... not becos i want to, but becos im bored.. lol.

Seem to have lost my passion for blogging these days...

So anws, i'll begin with wad i did for the weekends..

Saturday (5th Dec 09)

Met up with cao at cine, firstly i hitched a ride from sis's fren as they also gg town. So kian drove us to orchard but along the way got heavy jam... then while we were abt to park at centrepoint, got 1 car infront of us were waiting for the ppl to cross before parking so we waited... and waited... the car still dun wan to move.. wth.. kian angry liao go horn the car then the car moved! lol.. i bet it must be a woman.. haiz. After that, i alighted at centrepoint and walked to cine to meet cao. And thats where some problem occurs.

I called cao but his fone was off.. so i went to cine and searched everywhere for him.. sounds crazy right? Yeah.. it was abt time where i realised my efforts were futile and wanted to give up searching when i suddenly had an idea to go online.. so immed i went online using wifi and saw him.. msg him where is he and then he replied.. aft tat i found him! Thank god! If not we wun be able to meet up already. So anws, met up le but he said he ate alrdy and gg to go home soon.. so he acc me to have dinner before leaving.

Aft he left le, i went to somerset 313 for a walk.. and thats where i called my frens, aim and alvin separately. And in the end i met up with aim first at 313.. a very short but quality meet up. Soon, aim left when alvin came so left me and alvin. It was already 1130pm by then, the shops all closing. Actually alvin wanted to come to visit 313 and shop there but all the shops closed already.. he came a bit too late but nvm.. we went to walk ard.. then to cine again.. ended up at the kopitiam opp cine where we had some supper at Botak Jones. I ate the mini-me fish n chips.. not bad! Had some quality fellowship too.. after tat took NR5 home.

Thats it.. a topsy-turvy day.. but ended up nicely.

I guess tats all.. nth to blog abt le.. bb!

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Sunday, December 6, 2009 at 11:40 AM
Just felt kinda sad for a moment, although im hiding it with a poker face.

Its all about the posting.. worried loads abt it.. next wk is my passing out day. Really dun wish for that day to come, but somehow it will still come. Can only pray that the unit posting is a gd one.

And somehow, also can't bear to leave the whole platoon.. after like close to 2 mths spent with them.. and also the sgts too.. i truly agree that unit sgs arent better than oeti's. Oeti sgts really put lots of love and effort into teaching, but unit sgts will just give u a "F" to ur face.

Haizzzzzzz.... perhaps im just too emotional.. i rly can't bear to leave the place and everyone else.. The awaiting really sucks.. The feeling of not knowing where ur gg sucks even more.

I dun have the mood to do anything now.. Will be gg to church later. Hope God can come ease my heavy and burdened heart.

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Saturday, December 5, 2009 at 12:07 PM
Ytd was our Cohesion Day.. it was held at Chevrons.

First, we had our bowling game as planned.. then its free and easy period. Went to imm to have lunch and walk walk a bit before going back to chevrons again for our next event which was... the singing competition!

Went to Zes Disco which was the location where the event was held. Inside really like a music pub.. nice environment.. Everyone was sitted in groups and preparing for the event. And guess who were the judges?? They were the staff sgts, sgt, 2ic and pc! Wooooahh~!


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