The topic is Uncertainty.. Why?? Becos im so uncertain of many things, so unsure of wad to do now and then.
Its like... im already thinking.. wat am i gg to do after i ord?? The "traditional" way would be to enrol in a university to continue studying.. but with that meagre gpa of mine, i dun even noe i can qualify for a local u or not.. plus, im not sure wad course i wan to pursue too.. im so vexed.
Can i blame NS for all these that have happened?? NS is nothing but just piece of crap.. waste time waste ppl effort only. If not for ns, i would have already set out a path on wad to do after i grad from poly.. but becos of ns, i gotta wait for 2 long yrs before i can do anything.. and somehow or rather, my mind have "degraded".. i can't think like before again.. no longer quick witted and all.. ns just really transforms ppl to slow and useless creatures.. ns.. all ns fault!!
Wad hav ns done in my life so far?? Nothing!! From the start.. BMT to OETI to my current unit.. it does NOTHING at all!! So wtf i need ns for?? Seriously no point at all..
Argghhh.. now is the period to apply for universtites admission but i just dun feel like doing it.. im so uncertain wad to do.. shud i just wait after ord then decided wad to do? or shud i decided now?? dammm... this ns is like taking my life away.. i dunno wad to do except to rot here and let days go by.. i dun seem to do anything productive anymore..
Actually my mind is thinking, maybe i'll go SIM or private u to study.. or maybe just find a job elsewhere but hopefully the job is a gd one then i just be content and happy.. like my cousin lester, he's now working as an IT support for his company.. that's cool.. so shud i rly go further my studies or go into the working world after ord?? This is rly wad puzzles me.. i dunno wad i shud do..
Anyways.. there's still a long way before ord.. so dun rly feel like thinking abt it.. no pt thinking abt it too.. haiiz..
I just feel like rotting.. haaiiz... no purpose life.. godammn it sucks!
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