I've changed my blog song again! This time, its the song called Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars. Damn, im so in love with this song!! Nice, soothing, lovely, amazing.. its just "heavenly". Oh, so beautiful. And the lyrics are well-written too. Its now no. 1 on my playlist and i can listen to this song hundred times without getting bored of it. Recently, i just started listening to eng songs.. and im beginning to become an eng pop fan already rather than mandarin pop fan. Previously, there arent many eng songs in my mp3 player. But right now, i have like a plentiful! Such as teenage dream, california gurls, impossible, baby, take it off and many more.. Man, i think i love eng songs more than mandarin songs now! Oh but when i hear some new mandarin songs played by my sis, i get interested and went to look for them. So there's also a few chinese songs on my list. And one of my favourites is Elva's Cuo De Ren. This song is very emotional and feeling.
Okok, enough about songs.. im too crazy about them..lol. Anyway, my sis just left for bangkok this morning. I feel like going overseas too! When can i do that?? Have to wait for my injury to recover first.. dunno how long it will take. Each time i visit the doctor, they will only tell me they have to wait and see if the bone is properly intact before they can allow me to go for physiotherapy. Its been a long time already. I rly dun wish to wait anymore. I just want to start physio so i can start walking asap!
Its been 3-4 mths since im stuck at home. During this period, i feel like im just living in solitude, although i have parents to talk to. But when they're not around, life just revolves around me and me alone. Im just so lonely. Hmm, it feels like im stuck in a time trap during this 3-4 months period. Although time seems to be moving, but it has stopped for me. Im just like stuck in a timeless environment. Where nothing seems to move at all. Everything has frozen. My life is just like plain water. Same old routines everyday. Before that, my life isn't aint that colourful either. Apart from work, there's also nth much i can do. The good thing is, at least i could busy myself with work and nd to think abt so much things and there's ppl to talk to in camp so i won't feel lonely too. But now, its just me, myself and i. Its such a cold feeling. Maybe im destined to live a life like this. Im kinda used to it already. Perhaps it'll nv change.
Sometimes i ask myself, why am i born this way? Why can't i be like other people who can crack jokes, be funny or know wad to say at the right time? Forget it, im just not born a linguistic person. I dont even know how to express myself now. I wish i am just like an operating system, programmed to do what people wants me to do. So i need not think abt wad to do at times. Its so frustrating not knowing what to do at times.
Ok tats all.. will be going for my review this coming mon. Damn sian, have to go thru the x-rays and all the procedures again.. Hopefully i can start physio soon.. so i can start walking and go back to my normal life.. alrite, i'll end here.. bye.
Its October!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
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12:32 AM
Been quite a while since i last updated. Before i start, i really hate the flickering screen that i am seeing right now.. Yes its my laptop's LCD screen. It keeps flickering non-stop. Gosh.. its driving me crazy.. *hits hard on the laptop's back* yeah thats wad i did.. grrr.. cos im rly angry with it for flickering non-stop.. and i do not noe how to stop it.. mannn.. i guess its telling me that it wanna retire already.. Anyway, this laptop's been with me for almost 4 years, since the day i bought it at 2006. And that was the first time i ever got a laptop in my whole life!! Man im so jubilant! Delighted!! Way before that, i've played with my cuz's laptop and i find it real cool.. to have like a "pocket computer" whereby u can carry ard wherever u go..
However, this was not the case for me.. I didn't really bring my lappy ard in school although most ppl do.. i always leave it at home for fear of ppl stealing.. and also cos its heavy.. and i dun rly need it. The only time i brought it out was to the library for a project, and tat was the first time i find it a hassle instead of fun to bring it ard. Thats becos the battery can;t last long!! And i hav to find an outlet to plug my charger in to charge it.. Then other probs resurfaced.. such as the charger got spoiled due to my frequent coiling of the wire.. when it finally pronounced dead, i brought it to the repair centre to exchange for a new one, lucky i was still under warranty that time.. But now.. this new one which i've been using for quite a long time.. is also gg to say gdbye to me.. The wire somehow is a bit frayed with a bit of it exposing.. i have to use black tape and tape it up so it wont get exposed.. and sometimes, the electric can flow sometimes cannot.. So becos of this, its HARD to charge my laptop and becos the battery runs out very fast.. i need to charge it very often whenever i turned on my com. Felt like my com is on the verge of dying.. i wanna get it replaced.. but not enuf $$.. if only i saved enough $$ i can get a new one.. Well, its all about $$$ these days.. isn't it?
Okok.. so where was i?? Keep talking abt the laptop thing.. Oh yeah, its already October!! Gosh.. so fast man.. yeah and so fast in a few wks time, i'll be gg back for my next review at the hospital again! That kind of feeling is like coming upon me again.. not sure how will everything turn out.. And whether my mc will be extended again or not and by how long.. i rly do not noe.. On one hand, i yearn to have longer mc as i kinda enjoy wad im doing now (though its kind of boring, but its also a "gd" lifestyle.. eat-slp-eat-slp..) But then on the other hand, i also can't wait to learn to walk again so i can go back to normal lifestyle.. Man, its so hard to decide between the two.. Hmms, of course i wish i could walk so i can go back to normal again.. As for now, really dunno wad is gg to happen next, so can only wait and see wad the doc have to say before i can even think abt anything else.
As im typing this now, my com screen keep blinking and flickering.. i rly hate it!!! Im gonna whack it already!! Yes i just gave it a hard knock on its back!! And it kinda returned to normal!! Well this is wad i did everytime i see the screen flickering.. i noe its bad to hit it.. but i have no choice.. if i dun hit, it will keep flickering non-stop.. so the solution is to hit it!! Damn.. i rly wanna change a new one liao.. but $$$$$!!! Arghhhh!!!
Kk, enuf abt laptop and $$$... Hmms, well its been almost 3 and 1/2 mths since the accident happened and i was being grounded at home. So missed the world outside.. Wondering when can i ever go out to see the world again?? Oks.. nth much to talk abt though.. just noe that my company's building have been moved to a new one.. haven got to see it.. but i supposed it shud be better than the old.. So many things have changed..
Sometimes, i just wonder, wad would it be like if i were born in a different country? Would i be like what i am now? They say, "The grass is always greener on the other side". Yes its so true i keep thinking its so gd to be living in another country.. but is that really true? I rly dunnoe.. im kinda influenced by the Westerners... i rly wish to become Western one day.. or will i not? Hmms.. we'll see.. too many things to decided already.. afterall its the future.. no one noes wad tmr will bring isn't it?
Okays.. i guess thats all i have to say.. sayonara!
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