Winzzy's World Of Thoughts

Wow!! Its been so long... now is December already!! My gosh!! Time sure flies! Looking back, it was still July since i had the incident until now.. Have kinda "rested" for quite long too.. Gotta prepare to go back soon.. Still left like few more mths before ord.. so yeah.. but dunno wad life will be when i go back.. sure got many things change.. its been like so long since i stepped in there again.. Dunno if i'll be going back to repair my tanks again anot? Haha.. anyway, i dun think i can too given my condition.. hopefully can settle for some clerical job bah.. Hmms.. If time cud go back, i wud not want to have this incident at all.. But.. wads happened is happened.. can't turn back time.. Maybe God wanted to let me have this nice long break thats y he planned it all.. Hmms.. okok..

Well, its been like 5 mths now.. and my condition is getting better already. But still can't walk properly yet.. and also can't walk so fast.. Wonder when will i be able to walk like normal again? Hmm.. ok la, still learning how to walk now.. going for physio sessions.. Anyways, even when i recover back le, i'll become like an "endangered specie".. can't afford to fall down anymore again.. If fall down again and bone break, dunno if can repair again or not.. so now must be more careful when i walk le.. Feel so "endangered" lor.. haiz.. Need to pay extra caution when i walk in future.. Hmm.. maybe my bones are brittle thats y.. break so easily.. lol.. haiz.. And also, there's a small little chance i might get the avascular necrosis.. which is a side-effect of the post hip surgery.. oh man so many worries..

Ok lah.. dun think so much le.. but still can't help imagining the worst.. ok, shudn't think anymore le.. forget abt it.. i will walk like normal and lead a normal life again.. !! Alrights..

Well.. now just feeling a bit "restricted" due to the fact im serving the country.. so can't go anywhere i like lol.. felt so "freedom-less" man.. haiz.. lols ok.. enuf of haiz le.. haix.. lol.. kiddingz.. i am very restricted now.. can't go anywhere except to stay at home face the four walls and the ceiling.. really bored ttm!! ZZZ..

Now still left about 7 more mths before i ord.. thinking back, from the day i enlisted until now.. there's time where i go thru many sufferings.. there's also time where i kinda enjoyed it.. Those hard times during BMT leave a scar on me.. i still rmb how the "treatments" i received from some of my bunk mates.. and the tranings.. field camp and so on.. finally POP.. was so happy to get out of it.. Then i got into oeti where life seem a bit much better for me.. Over there, just learn and learn only.. but got to get used to the extreme late hours of bkout timing.. everyday everyone will bkout at 5.30pm sharp whereas for us, we always bkout the latest.. but well, got used to it.. moreover, we all suffered as a team together..so the bonding was there.. Finally the day came where we got our posting.. Was quite sad when i knew abt mine.. as i wud be separated from my fren as he gg another unit different from mine.

The hellish day eventually came when i report to unit for work.. Life there was really hell!! And some of the ppl there also.. this FUS (fk-ed up sgt) of mine really made my life hell.. and my section also the worst out of all.. Everyday work and work like mad.. until so late.. then go back.. Go back also like no energy le.. next day still must report back for work again.. And then.. LAB, ICT.. all the major exercises came and we have to work even more crazier.. OT like almost everyday.. have to face shit everyday.. super shiong and chiong lah.. A lot of hiccups n conflicts between me and that fus of mine n some of the seniors.. Really hellish.. Finally got a "break".. which was the driving course that i was selected to go for..

Felt damn lucky that i was selected!! But.. at first.. i din feel like going cos im gonna stay in and can't bkout everyday.. and also the mental stress i hav to go thru.. But aft thinking thru, i think maybe it wud be a gd chance for me to learn driving and gain some knowledge and skills too.. So i decided to go for it. Life there was like a routine. Everyday wake up, eat breakfast, wait for bus to go kbc, learn driving, come back, sleep.. lol everyday almost the same. Trainings were the worst man.. hell times for me.. as i got this super fierce and strict instructor who always scold and scold during my driving.. suddenly i feel driving is no longer that fun as i tot.. must observe so many things.. can be quite dangerous if u do not drive properly.. But anyway, i still persevered on until the end.. finally the day came for us to take our final test!! I failed the first 3 tests.. and finally passed on the 4th try!! So happy when i passed man!! Finally got my driving license.. woo!! Felt like i've accomplished something in my life.. so was damn happy!!

But life in driving course also not that smooth for me.. Besides all the driving and all.. the ppl there i met are like.. some gd some bad.. but on average, most are still quite gd lah.. just that i felt rather lonely in there. Maybe i just can't click well with the ppl there and my bunk mates. Towards the end of the course, there were a few hiccups between me and some of my bunk mates which led to a conflict among us.. Until now, it still hasn't been resolved yet, but well.. its over already and wads happened is happened already.. So dun wanna think abt it anymore.. Wadever that has happened.. just let it be and leave all the bad memories in there..

After driving course, finally back to unit again.. but then still on that "trying to adapt back" attitude again.. as been abt 2 mths nv go back.. and i also requested to change section and just when everything was going fine as i tot.. then this incident occurred which landed me into where i am today.. Yeah.. but well its all happened so just accept it lor..

Wow!! Felt like i just did a recap of my whole ns life!! Yeah.. but there's still a few more mths to go before i ord.. Can't wait to ord man!! After ord.. still nd to think abt so many things.. study or work.. so many things to plan for future.. wow!! Ok lah.. shall end here now.. bye..